Absent Shapes

by Eyeway

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released May 20, 2013

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Track Name: Text In Space
In the dark your breath comes like the whimper of a mouse
like you think I am not really there and I’m not there
I’m cross-legged In my night gown On the couch
Mouth dry From an orange and its peels

on the pavement we walked you and i
a mockery of what we used to enjoy
no more rhythmic words to carry us,

just the swallow sound
of a city spitting out ugly people
tryin’ to be friends, trying to be friends

But it’s okay
Cause you’re not there
you’re text in space
just text in space

there’s nothing left but our empty paces
in shoes too big to fit who we were
a really fucking long time ago
When you lived somewhere not too far from the beach
your kiss was still like an hourglass
And i wonder why chase the ghost
of every happiness I’ve ever had

But it’s okay
Cause you’re not there
you’re text in space
just text in space

I’m just too frightened to send an email or call
So I give up a night to read Infinity Blues by Ryan Adams
And see you in my head,
And see you in my head,

But it’s okay
Cause you’re not there
you’re text in space
just text in space
Track Name: Red Feathers Pt. 1
For all the jokes I’ve made
about loving you under my breath
when you are out of earshot like
you always are, I’ve laughed bitterly
and put words together in towers of ash instead of song
and pricked the dry skin of my thumb
with a tack until the holes
stared back like eyes.

How can I even begin
to love a girl who only exists to me
in threadbare tapestries?
It seems even your own little sister
has her own sad poem about you.

What are the trees like on Venus?
I dare not ask. I beg for your scraps.
You have red feathers in your wings
and blood in your hair

In a flutter just outside my vision,
your heart houses limbs and legs
and teeth and skin,
enough life for a new world
where I’d like to join you.

But you cannot take me there
because I am a flea, and I don’t
even live on your back,
I am a small bug under
Someone else’s shoe.

What are the trees like on Venus?
I dare not ask. I beg for your scraps.
You have red feathers in your wings
and blood in your hair
Track Name: Exsiblings
First one had a brother
He was younger than me

Next one had a sister
She was older than me

Last one had no siblings
He was gone before I ever got to meet them

First one’s younger brother
Chased girls in the back of the neighborhood Y

Next one’s older sister
Painted her toe nails blue against alabaster tile

Last one had no siblings
And I scarce recall his features in my mind

I think your younger brother
May have liked me more than you did

I wished your older sister
And I never left my bedroom

And you there, faded shadow,
You never let me love and lose your life’s amenities
Track Name: Since You Asked
You’ll only be disappointed
If you ask me, “what are you made of?”
But no one really asks that question anyway

No one likes to waste their breath on strangers
Who begin each day with the same old dirty habits
and who bite their apples too close to the core

Well since you asked,
I’m just muscle and sinew, just some feeble bones
Grown brittle in front of a computer screen
While looking at pictures of Robert Smith

And what could possibly be so sad
And what could possibly be so lonesome
As my reflection super imposed
Over his face on the monitor?

So who’s your favorite band?
Hey help me out here, I’m just trying to
Start a conversation
Would it hurt you to be kind?

Well you don’t give a shit
then I don’t give a shit either,
I’ll just go back inside

And what could possibly be so sad
And what could possibly be so lonesome
As going an entire day without hearing my own voice?
You’ll only be disappointed.
Track Name: Red Feathers Pt. 2
The chase is on
My heart the hungry fox
He woke from his bed of red
Feathers fallen to the earth

Oh hungry fox
Running wild in the air
Oh you won’t apologize
for seeking what you want

But why is it you only want the shadows?
The ghostly ones who refuse to feel your love?
Even if you caught them, they would only fade away
Into nothing.

There’s a girl
Somebody I used to know
But I watched her die
in a dream I had last night

When she fell
The side of the building collapsed
And I heard an echo so terrible
Like a bear trap had been snapped

And I heard her mother calling from the crowd
And I heard her sister crying for a peaceful word
And I felt myself in pieces like a mirror on the floor
completely useless.

You, my dear, were always
So far away from everyone
Who loved you,
So how could I expect

To ever get close
To you, my dear,
Your face is a lullaby
For all my sleepless nights

And my hungry heart is still collecting feathers
From the dreaming place where you let so many fall
And the fox in me is still building a red nest of bloody down
You’re always welcome, You’re always welcome,
You’re always welcome.
Track Name: The Song of Solomon
a sweaty-palmed girl grasps our bodies,
one in each lonely fist. we’re plastic
figurines from two different doll houses.
you have three eyes and i cannot bed my knees.
i don’t think we’re ever
supposed to meet.
but sometimes, as if to tease,
closer and closer still, her hands
approach one another,
and we, riding along, snug
in the vices of those palms,
approach one another and i scream
soundlessly. the times when i
can almost meet your gaze
and when you can almost tell me your name
are unbearable, but then like a migraine
she remembers why, and flings you
far under the bed.
Track Name: Little Crumbs of Cake
In my dreams I only ever see the back of your head
So when you turn around all I see is hair
All my memories of you are more than ten years old
I cradle them like babies who never ever wake up

Are you still wearing a red sequin dress with the ruffles tacked up by your knee?
Do you still cross the street in your platform boots a thousand miles away from me?
I’m the lone rider of these horses, garish blue and green, with their eyes all falling out
Together we circle the moon and her face is just too beautiful to understand, too beautiful to understand

I carry little pockets of you everywhere but I don’t know what you look like
I worry and I knot the threads of your life out there but I don’t know what you feel like
Sometimes I believe you’re my only queen and you’re waiting for your horses to come home
But I know you stopped waiting long ago, we’re dying in the pasture, we’re dying in the pasture,

And the little crumbs of cake you left for us were never enough
the little crumbs of cake you left for us are gathering maggots and dust, maggots and dust
Track Name: Red Feathers Pt. 3
Every time I take a step I’m convinced I have arrived
Until I realize there’s still a river in the way
Where is the path that will take me to your house?
Where is the song that will make you pay attention, attention?

But words mean nothing when they are on my tongue
And breaths mean nothing without your tender lungs
And flowers bloom until they rot to dust
And I am cold as stone until there’s some sign of life
From your corner, some sign of life from your corner

Now I’m standing still while the wild water blocks me in
I’d try to cross but I don’t know how to swim
So I’ll hold my tongue and let the birds do all the singing
I’d send one to your window if I knew where you were living,
if I knew where you were living.

But words mean nothing when they are on my tongue
And breaths mean nothing without your tender lungs
Your wings have clapped themselves over my heart
And I was as cold as stone until I felt your blood red
feathers, I felt your blood red feathers
Track Name: Absent Shapes
On your back
I traced a pair wings
That you never
Never believed were yours

But nothing’s better
Than feeling those feathers on your skin
The shape of them

In the water
So barely visible
I clung to your body in the undertow
Your eyes were on my eyes

Glinting in the sunlight
With your pocket full of shells
Your wings were in the sea

Wash the salt off
the drops of water fell in rivers down your chest
flowed for just a moment
alive for just a moment

Do you miss them? The fragile hours flying by?
Their absent shapes bring me to tears.
They bring me to tears
Track Name: Red Feathers Pt. 4
I am already like the albino moth
I saw last night in a sleeping vision
Of who I am
She was flying with her sisters
But got stuck out in the rain
Pasted against the wet leaves of a tree
Diaphanous wings still glowing white
In the struggle to be free
I’m getting stronger every day
Wet mouths moving in the cold, wet rain
Now that’s a nice dream

Until then, my body will be stiff
Like a moth pinned under glass
I'm mounted in a child’s room
In a child's room I'm mounted and ignored
Will I die unremembered and unloved?
You are shrieking as you pluck
The red feathers from your wings
Oh laughing girl, the fearless abandon
in your blood red feathers
What would I look like if I wore your blood red wings?
What would I look like all alone in the fog?
You don’t seem so lost out in the rain.
That’s my little prayer
That’s my little prayer
Track Name: We All Used To Crawl
What if I’m not ready to be a human being?
What if I don’t want to want so much anymore?
Then don’t put on your clothes today and lay stiller than a stone
Let go of your noisy dreams and be quiet instead

What if I’m not ready to go out and make a living?
What if I’d rather swallow glass than make something of myself?
Then don’t put on your clothes today and lay stiller than a stone
If you open your eyes they’ll see you and dress you for the races

The mountain crawled
The silence crawled
The old house crawled
The crows they crawled
The river crawled
The old man crawled
We all used to crawl
We haven’t forgotten how.

But what if I’m not ready to forget about the ghosts I know
Leave them all behind and chase the love that wants to be chased?
Then don’t put on your clothes today and lay stiller than a stone
Fold your arms across your chest and make your breathing slow
The ghosts you know will come to you all thin from sin and song
They will curse and comfort you even if they were never there at all
They were never there at all. They were never there at all!

The mountain crawled
The silence crawled
The old house crawled
The crows they crawled
The river crawled
The old man crawled
We all used to crawl
Don’t pretend you’ve forgotten how.

What if I’m not ready to say I know the answer?
What if I don’t want to know so much anymore?
Then remember you know nothing
And you’re not the answer the universe needs
And then get back on your knees and crawl

We all used to crawl
And we were wiser then
Track Name: Afterall
When the moon is too far and yet not far enough
you forget where you are you forget where you're not
from a distance you seem so much smaller than me
but as you pass me by I'm afraid of your size
and the feelings you have in your heart made of flesh
that must pump just like mine after all

When the sea is too deep and yet not deep enough
to contain all my fears to contain all your fears
from a distance we seem like one hell of a pair
so why can't i fall asleep? I am too much aware
of the lies that we're telling ourselves in the caves
of our hearts that must echo in the night after all
Track Name: Red Feathers Pt. 5
The flies by your window with their long black tongues
Will hover until you swat them and they hide down in the grass
When you take your last breath will you realize you were loved
By the small ones who were always waiting to be let in?

The flies by your window with their wide gray wings
Reflecting the light that the sun to you brings
The sun shines his fire on every creature below
So I’m proud to know we share the light

I know your heart is heavy with the burdens you’ve endured
You’re a phoenix so reluctant to begin your life anew
But your wings are so much wider and lovelier than my own
We could fly anywhere, but we stay just where we are

The flies by their window with your jewel red eyes
Could fly anywhere but they stay by your side
And you, fairest creature, with your wild, red wings,
Will you ever let yourself go free?
Track Name: Blue Jeans
You were there when I was small
I wonder if you remember
standing so tall on the table
playing guitar in your blue jeans
in an assemblyman's crowded office
in the bronx where we had a party
to celebrate the end of our play 'grease'
when i was small and you stood so tall

I asked you the name of the song you sang
you said it was a cover of a song by the dire straits
they called it 'romeo and juliet'
but you said you sang it in the style of 'the indigo girls'
as if i'd know the difference
i knew nothing then
except i wanted to be just like you